All wound up

Here I am, after the first day of school, and I feel like my head is spinning.  I'm not even the student!

My two boys both met their new teachers today, and I was just a ball of anxiety getting them ready.  We were all ready in record time this morning, and I swear we were the first family that arrived at school.  Crazy!!  I can't be that organized all the time.  Do you know how difficult that was for me?  Incredibly!!  Now I feel like I need a weekend to recover, but it's only Tuesday.  Sigh....

I was so proud of my oldest!  He was excited to see his friends again, and thank goodness his best buddy was still in his class this year.  I know that made it a lot easier for him to transition back.

The youngest went for his first classroom visit, and his first full day is later this week.  I'm sure that will be an emotional day for me!  I'm just not psychologically ready to see him 'go'.... and I'm terribly worried that he may not be ready.  In many ways he is ready, but it still might not work out for him.  Time will tell.  I'm just a mess!! I am worried about how he's going to manage with changing his shoes, getting his jacket on and off, etc.  I think he's emotionally ready, and he'll do fine with the activities I'm sure.  It's all the little things, the being independent, without having me there to help with whatever he needs.  I'm not good at creating independence in my sons.  I hope he learns quick 'on the job', out of necessity.  Sink or swim time!

And then my other worry is that I'm completely, flat broke.  Like, seriously.  No kidding.  I am so bad at managing money.  Usually I just get lucky, and somehow it all works out.  But not this month.  So, I'm doing what I can to make sure I survive.  I've got two weeks until more money arrives.  Time to get creative.  Explore my options.  Make it work.  Somehow.

Basically dude, I just need to CHILL.