Kitchen.... check!

This entire day, I was completely on target.  It was a huge task, and I really nailed it.  I cleaned and organized my whole kitchen, including the cupboards, and the huge pile of crap (including some rotting potatoes) that had accumulated on the floor.  Yay!  I am so happy with it.  I even took a magic eraser to the walls, the flow hood, and the stove top.  I scrubbed the floors too.  I mean, I nailed it!  I didn't do much of anything else.  It took a looooong time.  And yet, I was able to focus to get it done.

The boys were great at entertaining themselves today, and they were not overly whiny, which was a JOY.  I have been very sensitive to their whining lately.  It makes me want to collapse into a coma... it's not good.  But I've been cutting back my caffeine intake, so maybe that has helped too.  First I went off tea, cold turkey, and surprise, I had headaches from that and felt awful.  Now I'm drinking one or two very weak cups of tea, that only brews for 1 minute, and it seems perfect.  It may be the 'placebo effect', or it may be just the right amount of caffeine to alleviate headaches but not exacerbate the anxiety level.

This week I also took some time (too late at night!) to go through some old emails from 2007.  In particular, I was interested in the ones my ex sent to me.  I would send him a couple of paragraphs of my thoughts each day, and he'd reply with one-liners.  It really captured our whole relationship.  He didn't acknowledge much of what I thought or felt, ever.  He never wanted me to ask for his help.  He was very creative at dodging those requests.  And I was on his case over and over again to deal with an issue that was very important, but he simply didn't want to deal with.  He was also very creative at stalling that issue.  I can't believe I put up with him for so long.

Well, on that happy note...  Perhaps I'll refocus my energy by thinking about what I'm grateful for today!

1. My children.
2. My parents.
3. My sister.
4. My dear friends, both old and new.
5. That I had the courage to say "enough" and start again.
6. My spirituality and growing to love myself more each day.
7. Sticking with my vision of being a stay-at-home mom, until my kids start school.
8. The beautiful summer weather.
9. For the grace to know that I am loved, no matter what, and held in the arms of God.