I had a fantastic couple of days of blazing through my apartment with a vengenace. Then I dropped and crashed. I couldn't do it anymore. I had a blitz, and now I'm blitzed out. I can't explain it. Perhaps I was motivated by the energy of the full moon (in Aquarius, if that is significant). But I am just not feeling it anymore. I sooooo wish I was. I've decided I'm going to speak to my doctor about this. I think it may be time to call in the big guns.... meds. I've never tried antidepressants before, but I have enough anxiety and lack of ability to focus to warrant it, I think. I so wish I could focus on a task and stick with it. That would be great. It did feel great while it lasted.... but it never does last. In fact, I think I can remember another 'blitz' that correlated with a full moon.... so maybe there is something to that.
Well, this feeling is pretty crappy, and I need to find my zen again. Blahhhhhhhhhhhh.... crappy.
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